Just so you know, this is my third edit of this post. I've had a couple of friends call and talk to me about some of the harsher language that I used initially. I am probably a bit too blunt for my own good at times, especially when venting in the middle of bout of depression. But I also do feel that there are more than a few out there who can relate to all of this.
Still, I am VERY sorry if this post caused anyone to be fearful or worried. This was NOT my intent. This post was merely to shed a light on people who struggle with "Depression" from time to time, such as I do. I hope that no one was too worried. Because I am O.K. I just need this avenue as a way to ride this this kind of thing out.