Sunday, April 16, 2017

Easter & Reality; a Semi-Lament.

"Precious and fragile things, need special handling.  My God, what have we done to you?

We always tried to share, the tenderest of care.  Now look what we have put you through.

Angels with silver wings, shouldn't know suffering.  I wish I could take the pain for you.

If God has a master plan, that only He understands, I hope it's your eyes He's seeing through.

Things get damaged.  Things get broken.  I thought we'd manage.  But words left unspoken, left us so brittle, there was so little left to give."
Depeche Mode

I'm pretty sure that this is the first & only time I've begun a blog post without any Scripture verses.  Hmmmm...

And today is Easter...
and, yes, he HAS risen.

Also, I know I haven't posted in a LONG time.  I had some problems with Blogger, and I am far from being the most technologically proficient guy.  I had a friend help me out.  Thanks to him, things should be running fairly smoothly for me from here on least as far as this online thing goes.

The rest of my life, not so much...


Let me state for the record that I am a truly terrible Christian.  
In fact, at best I am a "Second Class Christian."

#1. I have been told by certain Charismatic friends that I am disobedient because I have not been "Baptized in the Spirit," with the evidence of speaking in tongues.
#2. I have been told by some Catholics I know that I am in danger of the fires of hell...or at least purgatory, because I have not embraced the true church.
#3. I can be a christian, but I will walk with a spiritual limp because I am not a Calvinist.
#4. I am in error, because I am not a Dispensationalist.
#5. I am a Compromiser & False Teacher, because I have no problem what-so-ever with Evolution and the rest of modern science.

Recently, I've run into more than a few people who are Eastern Orthodox.  In one form or another, they have implied that I am not a part of the true apostolic faith.

It really stinks when you just want to put your faith in the faithfulness of Jesus.
I mean, what kind of Christian does that?

If I am lucky enough that God's grace is actually powerful enough to redeem a loser like me, I guess I'll be sitting at the little kid's table in heaven. (That's not such a bad thing.  I'm pretty sure C.S. Lewis will be there with me.)

If I took off my subconscious/emotional/spiritual/"whatever" shirt and showed you my chest and back, you would not see a sculpted work of "buffetude" from some gym work out.  No, what you would see are scars.  Lots and lots of scars. (My Dad told me a month or so ago, that I've seen a lot of pain in this life.  I hadn't thought about it all that much, but he's right.  Mostly in others, but plenty on my own.)

The ugliest and most painful scars that you would see on me are the ones I've been given by my fellow believers.  And they are all over the place on me.

We all have scars.  That's a part of life.  We all carry them in various ways.  Many of us just put on a long sleeve turtleneck sweater in the summer.  Personally, I try to stamp mine into the ground.  It never works.  They're still there.


As of late, I've been looking for a new church to attend.  Specifically, I'm looking for a church that has a Sunday night service.  I have to work Sunday mornings now, so I don't have a lot of options.  I'm not interested in a Saturday evening service.  I get off really early on Saturdays, so I'd like to fish with my dad or go ride my bicycle.

It's pretty meager pickings trying to find a Sunday night service.

Then there is the problem of ME.  I am a walking, talking, living breathing difficulty.  I've never felt like I truly fit in anywhere.  I'm way too "Contrarian" for my own good.  I'm drawn to controversy, and I love to ask questions. (Christians HATE it when you ask questions!) I thrive on the weird stuff in the bible, and love it when there is stuff there that is either difficult, or impossible to explain.

I HATE simple minded answers!  Towing the party line does not impress me.  All it does is tell me that you are to lazy to think for yourself.  Worse, that you will be completely unprepared to answer the questions of someone who is truly hostile to the bible and the Gospel.  Worst of all, if you are a parent, and you push this nonsense on your kids, don't be surprised when they leave the faith after being confronted with well thought out alternatives, and your simpleminded answers don't have much traction.

Actually, while I'm on this subject, here are two "Easter" themed videos that I really, truly love.  I've read most of Rob Bell's books, and a few by Peter Rollins.  Don't get me wrong, I have some extremely profound differences & disagreements with these guys!!!

But at the same time, I like to get their perspective on things.  They are both thoughtful and highly intelligent.  Plus, I don't really believe that you can know your own opinions properly unless you see it from as many angles as possible, including those you don't see eye to eye with. (And if American christians would stop being so afraid all the time, they might just try that.) Honestly, there is no counter idea/philosophy that has caused my faith in the resurrected Christ to be shaken.

Resurrection: Rob Bell from Rob Bell on Vimeo.

I Deny the Resurrection from Peter Rollins on Vimeo.

The last one there, in particular, makes me think about the general lack of any type of social justice movement among American Evangelicals.  Near as I can tell, Jesus put a high premium on how we treat "The Least of These."  But you almost never hear anything from any of the big Evangelical leaders on these issues.  Not much about poverty, racism, sexism, pollution and creation care, and in some cases being down right anti-emigrant & anti-refugee.  They are "Pro-Birth" to be sure, but after that, they give the whole idea over to the Left, and what is more often than not, watered down Liberal theology.

Rob Bell asked WAY too many questions.  We pushed, shoved and kicked him to the door of standard  Evangelicalism.  When he walked out the door, we all stood back and said, "SEE, I told you so."

A friend of mine once noted to me that she had "Kicked him to the curb a long time ago."  My response was, "Yeah, we Christians are known for kicking people to the curb..."

So, with an attitude like mine,
it makes me a bad fit in most American church bodies... 

At the church I used to attend, I had an incident over a year ago.  Apparently, I am amazingly good at offending the feelings of people who have never bothered to even try to get to know me.  Through a truly stupid, yet innocently intended, comment on social media, I really angered a person at my church body.

Again, this person has never, EVER tried to get to know me, even though I went there for 10 years.  They had never said more than a passing "Hi" to me in all that time.  Yet, my comment, which was NOT directed at them, got them so riled that I was tossed out of a position I was in.

Personally, I would have worked for instant reconciliation if I had been a pastor.  Get the two sides together and find understanding and healing.  But that didn't happen.  I got the boot instead.  So I felt humiliated...still do.  And now I have a brand new scar.

I left the church for a while, feeling completely embarrassed.  I started going back a few months later, but it was never the same.  Every time I see this individual, I feel finger nails pulling at the scab.

The best...or worst part, of being gone was the reaction of people who I thought were my friends at this church.  I invested at least 10 years there, trying to develop relationships...and I really, truly tired my best.  I can count on less than one hand, the number of people who tried to call or get in touch with me.

When I did start going back, most seemed to not notice that I had been gone.  A few did and said things a long the line of, "I was wondering where you were."  Hardly the stuff that gives you confidence and enthusiasm to want to get involved again.

This time around, I told a select handful of people that I wouldn't be coming back due to work.  I told a friend I wanted to see how many people noticed or cared.  So far, nothing.  One pastor, on my last day, said that he wanted to get together and talk about weird stuff in the bible, because he knows I love that stuff.  I told him I would love that and to call me any time, and we could set it up.  He hasn't called.  He won't.

Today, I told a friend that I was looking for in a different church.  I also informed him that unless God told me directly to ever get involved in any kind of formal ministry again, and I did it anyway, I should be confined to the mental ward at HCMC downtown.

I don't know how many decades I have left on the planet, but I would like them to be relatively peaceful.  Working with Christians in a formal capacity is anything but peaceful.  At least that's been my experience.

Of course, all of this could be my fault.  I know I'm wired differently than most folks.  I get that.  I wish that God hadn't designed me to be a Square Peg.  But it's what I am.  I didn't think being a pain in the ass was a spiritual gift.

I simply am a bad fit for most American Christians.
I have to live with that.


For the past few months, I've been thinking a lot about wether or not you can lose your salvation.  I've also been wondering about all the people I've known over my life, and if they really are Believers.

For most of my life, I've believed in the concept of "Eternal Security."  I.e. "Once saved, always saved," based on the first chapter of Ephesians.  Another way of putting it is that if you leave the faith in one form or another, you were never truly a Believer saved by the indwelling of the Holy Spirit in the first place.

But I question that now.

I've watched many people walk away from the faith.  But I often wonder about those who claim to follow Jesus, yet hold to some of the weirdest shit possible when it comes to the bible and Christianity.

I know one guy...known him since he was a kid.  He grew up in a Christian home, went to  a Christian High School and college.  Talked the talk, etc.

 I don't know what he's up to now, other than being an Air Force officer.  But the last few correspondences that we shared, he was following some crack pot, far-right preacher.  He sent me a 6 page screed on why Jesus wants us to own assault rifles in case we need to overthrow the federal government. (Alrighty then...) Nice to know he's in the military, isn't it?

I also know of others who have really twisted the bible so that they think it's perfectly fine for a man to surgically remove his penis and get falsies implanted.  God clearly made a huge mistake and put him/her in the wrong body...and if you torture the bible long enough, it will agree with you.

For the record, I can totally identify with this impulse.  I might not look it on the outside, but on the inside I am 6'3, with a full head of blonde hair, and rippled abs.  I'm also of Japanese decent.  THE PAIN IS REAL, PEOPLE!!!!

And I could go on and on and on and on and on...

Friends and associates I've known, who have now wandered into some extremely weird corners of the faith.  They are so far out there that I have no idea what they really want other than to have their own thoughts and ideas tickled and affirmed.

It's like Jesus isn't good enough anymore.

We need to have something else.  Something "Religious" to prove our position and make us feel better.  Faith isn't enough!  We need to have some sort of "Works" to live by.

Maybe it's voting for a certain party.  Maybe it's owing guns for Jesus.  Maybe it's encouraging men to wear dresses...even if it doesn't flatter their hips.  Maybe it's telling Jesus that all religions are his equal.  Maybe it's telling Jesus that sin isn't so bad that he shouldn't take it seriously.


And maybe simply isn't me or anyone else being very merciful.


After all of that, you may be right to ask, "DUDE, why do you even BOTHER with Christians and Christianity?!?!?!?!?!"

A fair question, to be sure.

And I ask myself that A LOT!

What it comes down to has everything to do with Easter.  The reality is that I simply cannot deny the resurrection.  I can't.  It's been almost 2000 years since the death and resurrection of Jesus.  That is LONG before the advent of modern science.

No one can prove it in a test tube or laboratory.  No one can produce a body after all this time.  But I simply cannot deny the resurrection of Jesus.


Despite the average Christian being an asshole, myself included, the church has survived in spite of itself.  In fact, as religious movements go, the early church should have died off within a generation.  To my knowledge, the early Christians were the only group of people I know of who got absolutely nothing for their troubles.  No wealth, fame or power.  Only torture and death.  Yet they believed in the impossible.  A man, their king, resurrected from the dead.  And they were willing to die for that belief.

The fact also remains, that despite me being a pain in the ass, I have seen over and over and over again the solid evidence in my own life, that this man/king has taken care of me even when/especially when, I really didn't deserve it.

I have my struggles...particularly when it comes to other American Christians.  I get very, very angry and frustrated.  But I haven't lost hope.  Mostly because my hope is NOT in other Christians.  My hope is in Christ.

Every day, I try to keep my faith
in the faithfulness of Christ.

I hope that's good enough.


Because he HAS risen.



Saturday, February 11, 2017

There's no other way...

"I and the Father are one."
John 10:30

Jesus answered, "I am the way and the truth and the life.  No one comes to the Father except through me."
John 14:6

"Salvation is found in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given to men by which we must be saved."
Acts 4:12

Yesterday I had lunch with a kid from church.  I really enjoy him, his brothers and their parents.  They're one of those families that is down to earth, "Gets it," and doesn't seem to fear the big, bad world.    They take their faith seriously, too.  But not in that weird hyper-religious, "I'm more pious than you" kind of way that many christian families do.  They also seem to have some kind of intellectually gifted gene that runs through the lot of them.  This kid is the youngest, yet started college at 16.  I've been trying to encourage him and his siblings to consider going into academics, because the church in America desperately, desperately needs more down to earth intellectuals.  In my opinion, we're a virtual vacuum.

Anyway, we headed over to the new Giordano's Pizza in the Uptown area of Minneapolis.  I'm admittedly a pizza snob.  I had Giordano's pizza in Chicago, down by the famous water tower ages ago.  I learned the hard way that there simply is no point in trying to find Chicago style, deep dish pizza anywhere but Chicago.  Now I can!  They just had to import the chain up to the Twin Cities.

Since that style of pizza takes A LONG time to cook, we had plenty of time to talk.  Jared, (That's his name) is a smart kid...and more than a bit of a brainiac.  We talked a lot about Jesus and the bible.  And I do mean A LOT.

I'm a big believer in tolerance and coexistence.  I've had Atheist friends, Jewish friends, agnostic friends, a couple that dabbled in Wicca/Witchcraft, and now I'm working on getting some Muslim friends.

(Never had a Buddhist friend.  Gotta try and do something about that.)

I'm desperately hoping that President Voldemort's Muslim ban get's flushed down the toilet, and that this country gets a ton of Muslims.  I'll tell you why in a bit.


But first, a side note; TOLERANCE = Essentially, to put up with things you might very well find disagreeable, or even possibly offensive.

Honestly, if I took a swing at anyone I found myself in disagreement with, or was doing something that offended my sensibilities, I wouldn't be able to walk 50 yards in the mall.  And that would suck, because I have to go over there today to get some birthday cards.

What Tolerance does NOT mean is endorsement, agreement or condoning.

That's what so often drives me insane from the Lefties I know.  I'll tolerate plenty of stuff.  That in no way means I see eye to eye with it.

A while back, one of my gay friends got mad at me because I thought that the cross dressing man in our store was amusing.  I told him that the dude could dress anyway he wanted to.  It was his business.  But I was still going to find it funny.  I grew up on Monty Python.  Seeing a grown man cavorting around in a dress is funny to me...and 99% of the rest of the world.

My lefty friend didn't like that.  It wasn't good enough for me to "Tolerate" the man in the dress.  It wasn't good enough for me to let the man in the dress live his life the way he wanted to.  (It wasn't a particularly flattering dress.  It did nothing to accentuate his hips.) My friend wanted me to give it my blessing.  That's the hypocrisy of the true Left.

Not gonna happen, buddy.

Question: How come cross dressers never wear full-on Burkas, 
Hijabs or Amish gowns with bonnets?

Food for thought, anyway.


So, why do I want a whole bunch of Muslims to be allowed in as refugees?  Well, the basic reason is simply out of mercy.  Jeez Louise, people are dying by the thousands over there.  Have a little compassion!

But more importantly, they don't know Jesus.

That's why I want them here.

It's rather difficult to share the Gospel in Islamic countries.  You generally get killed if you do.  Any convert is instantly marked for death.  I am convinced that God is using these man made disasters to bring them into the free world, where they can hear the Gospel without fear of death.


As Jared and I waited for the pizza, I told him a thought that I've had in my head and have begun to state repeatedly.  It's what I believe in the center of my very soul.

"Jesus is who he claimed to be.  He is the crucified and resurrected King.  The creator God of the universe, and the only, single hope for fallen humanity.  There is no other way."

After that, we can have a discussion on other, less central things over a cup of coffee or whatever.

Here's something that fascinates me about Jesus.  He made the claim that he is God, and that it was his way or the highway.  He was completely & utterly exclusive...which doesn't sound very tolerant, now does it?

I've seen Liberal theologians (Liberal theologically, not politically) fart around with Scripture and argue that Jesus didn't really mean that.  But a plain, basic reading of the text can lead to nothing else.  Jesus said that he was it!

That leaves you with minimal options.  Either Jesus is right, or he's a complete nut job.  You certainly can't conclude that he was a "nice guy."

I have a deep respect for other religions.  I try never to disrespect them.  However, I fully believe them to be dead wrong.  But something that fascinates me about other world religions is that they ALL, and I do mean ALL, make room for Jesus!!!

The earliest world religions that we know of seem to be Hinduism, and then perhaps Buddhism. (The earliest form of Judaism started way back when, but didn't do much in the way of evangelizing.) They were well developed by the time Jesus came along.  Yet, both Hinduism and Buddhism make room for Jesus as an enlightened soul and/or an avatar of higher consciousness.

This morning, I was poking around the internet on Jewish references to Jesus.  Sure enough, he's in some of their sacred texts.  How many references in the Talmud are up for debate, but he's there.  A nice Jewish boy gone bad.  Sure he performed miracles, but he did it using witchcraft and the power of Satan.

The other thing that is interesting about world religions is that every single one that came along after Jesus has claimed him as one of their own.

Islam, in particular, is interesting.  Jesus (Isa) is mentioned far more than Mohamed is!  In fact, when Islam first came into being, the church treated it as a heretical form of Christianity.  Islam teaches that Jesus was born of a virgin, will come back to judge people, but that he was not God, nor was he ever crucified...and therefore, never resurrected.

I've studied Islamic history long enough to know what a beautiful history it's had.  Heck, they invented Algebra, the modern compass, and were doing cataract surgery when my ancestors were still raiding medieval monasteries on the English coast.

But that doesn't mean it's true.  
Without the crucifixion and resurrection of Jesus, Christianity collapses.

The other thing that's interesting about the religions of the world, is that they all ultimately contradict each other.  I've heard people argue that at their core, they all teach "Love." (Not all of them, but the majority do.)  So what?  The various means of the ultimate goal, salvation, blatantly contradict each other.

Hinduism is massively polytheistic, with essentially eternal chances through reincarnation to become one with Brahmin.  Buddhism is rather agnostic.  You get unlimited chances through reincarnation, until you just sort of disappear.  Satanists, and those who practice black magic believe they will rule in hell with Satan. (Not sure where they get that, exactly.)

Judaism, Christianity and Islam are all brutally monotheistic, and you only get one chance.  In Judaism, you gotta do enough good works and keep the law of Moses.  In Islam, there is no sure guarantee, but you better be good.

Jesus said, "Just trust me.  
Put your faith in my faithfulness.  
I've taken care of everything."

I like that.

I'm all for tolerance.  But that does not equal endorsement.  I believe strongly coexistence.  But that doesn't mean that it's all the same.  That's not even logical.  I believe that a diverse society is a beautiful thing.  But at the end of the day, truth is not relative.  There can be only one.


There's no other way.



Sunday, January 29, 2017


"No one can serve two masters.  Either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other.  You cannot serve both God and money."
Matt. 6:24

"Watch out for false prophets.  They come to you in sheep's clothing, but inwardly they are ferocious wolves.  By their fruit you will recognize them."
Matt. 7:15&16

"They also will answer, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry or thirsty or a stranger or needing clothes or sick or in prison, and did not help you?'  He will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did not do for the least of these, you did not do to me."
Matt. 25:44&45

And you are to love those who are aliens, for you yourselves were aliens in Egypt.
Deut. 10:19

When an alien lives with you in your land, do not mistreat him.  The alien living with you must be treated as one of your native born.  Love him as yourself, for you were aliens in Egypt.  I an YHWH your God.
Lev. 19:33&34

I realized the other day that I hadn't written anything in over 2 months.  Mostly due to the Holidays, then the gloom of January and what not.  But also because I was waiting for something hopeful and inspiring.  Most of my last few post have been negative.  Especially since the election of President Voldemort.

I was hoping for something uplifting, but instead I got a news full of more Debbie Downer.  Once again, it was from "Christian" leaders.

I've had growing issues with Franklin Graham for a lonnnnnnnng time.  When he first took over for his father, I thought he was the coolest thing since sliced bread.  He had always been a bit of a rebel, and I liked that.  Also, his charity, Samaritan's Purse really does some good work.  So I was extremely hopeful that he would continue his father's work of simply helping the needy and preaching the Good News of Jesus' kingdom.

Unfortunately, it didn't take too long for the polish to start coming off.  It was many years ago, but it was during the time of the elder Graham's retirement.  Franklin and others wanted to build a museum to chronicle the history of Billy's ministry.  Nothing wrong with that.

However, Billy didn't want anything ostentatious or too fancy.  In fact, he had a very simply museum planned.  Franklin didn't want to go along with that.  Instead, he built a rather fancy museum on land that Billy had no interest in.  I thought that was a little weird.

Then, there came the issue of money.  Billy isn't poor by any means.  He was a paid a basic salary for his work in the ministry, with the vast majority of his income coming from sales of his books.  There is absolutely nothing wrong with that.  You make something yourself, and someone buys it.  Good for you!  That's how basic economics works.

Franklin, on the other hand...

$880,000 a year for running a "Christian" charity?!?!?!?!?

I'm all in favor of paying a guy for a good job, but that seems more than a bit excessive for a "Christian" charity that is supposedly set up to help the most vulnerable people on the planet.  It just seems that you could take some of that salary and spend it on people who could really use the people that charity is supposed to help.

Now, if this information disturbs you a tad, take a gander at this next link.  Please pay careful attention to the very bottom of the list and a guy named Rick Warren...

Rick is an interesting guy.  He make's his living off his writings and has paid back his church every penny they paid him for the years of his preacher salary.  Now, he preaches for free and STILL donates most of his money away.

That's what I call a "Testimony."

Rick isn't alone in giving most of his money away.  Francis Chan has the same nasty habit.  A few years back, he sold his house to buy a smaller one for his family...all the while hosting young men that he was mentoring with his family.

That's what I call a "Testimony."

There are others.  Rick McKinley of the Imago Dei Community in Portland.  Dan Kimball in S.Cal.  They have very successful ministries, but keep money at arm's length.

That's what I call a "Testimony."

Franklin has stated publicly that he wants to make enough money so that he can work for free once he hits 70.  Billy is worth an estimated $25 million.  Franklin is a multi-multi millionaire.  Don't know about you, but if I had a couple million in the bank, I might just quit my job as a butcher and go volunteer in a soup kitchen for a few years.

How much more money do you need before you can work for free?

On a side note; this past year saw the completion of Ken Ham's ministry,  "Wrong-Answers in Genesis'" Arc Encounter.  A $100 million theme park set up to to amuse people with some of the worst exegesis of Scripture around. ($18 million from the tax payers of Kentucky.)

I know that roughly 1 billion people on the globe lack access to clean drinking water.  Wells to gain access to clean drinking water only cost a few hundred dollars.  Seems to me that there was a better way to spend a hundred million dollars to proclaim the Gospel.

But what do I know?

Christians and money.  
A dangerous combination...


In the past few days, President Voldemort has issued a ban on immigrants from Muslim Majority countries...unless they are not Muslims.

Not ALL Muslim majority countries.  Just certain ones. (The chart on the left is from the Libertarian think tank, the Cato Institute.)

I'm not much into conspiracy theories, but you have to admit that this choice of countries is a bit odd.

Franklin Graham has come out and publicly backed Voldemort in this ban over the past few days.  Why?  Because Muslims are demonstrated by the chart to the left.

Now the ban does allow for non-Muslim, minority "Christians" to come as refugees (Nice double standard there.) from these Muslim majority countries.

Franklin says that helping these refugees is not a biblical issue.  Oh????

This from the same man that has been touting the March for Life in Washington D.C. this past week.  This from the man who claims to be "Pro-Life" and getting a Supreme Court Justice that will "Hopefully" overturn Roe V. Wade.  "Life" is precious to this long as it's in an American woman's womb.

Words are cheap.
Deeds say more.

It seems to me that people fleeing the slaughter in Syria, and the misery of other trouble Muslim countries are alive.  Do their lives not count?

Please do NOT tell me that you are "Pro-Life" unless you truly mean it.

Franklin Graham truly does NOT mean it.  
And he's proved it over the past few days.

I don't get it.  I really don't.

I live about a mile from a mosque.  I like to shop at the Halal market next to it. (Halal is to Muslims what Kosher is to Jews.) I buy my gas at a station run by a Shiite from Lebanon.  I don't find them to be particularly dangerous.

I have heard Pastor after Pastor, and Missionary after Missionary saying that God is bringing these Muslim refugees to our country so that they can hear the Gospel without fear of death.  I believe that! I believe in a God that can create something beautiful out of even the worst of human caused misery.  Through the death and resurrection of Jesus, anything can be made beautiful.

I just wish that guys like Franklin Graham believed it, too.

To him and others that live in fear, and have sold their ministries to politicians and the all-mighty dollar, I would simply say to them what Jesus said to certain religious leaders in his time; "You are in error because you do not know the Scriptures nor the power of God."
Matt. 22:29



Thursday, November 24, 2016

What Is...

He has shown you, O man, what is good.  And what does YHWH require of you?  To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God.
Micah 6:8

On hearing this, Jesus said, "It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick.  But go and learn what this means; `I desire mercy, not sacrifice.'  For I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners."
Matt. 9:12 & 13

"I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did to me."
Matt. 25:40

Ekklesia = "The Gathering"

What is the church?  Sometimes I really don't know.  It certainly isn't a building.

At it's root, the greek word "Ekklesia" does roughly translate as "The Gathering."  So ideally, the church is simply a bunch of people who follow Jesus.  After all, Jesus did say that where ever 2 or 3 are gathered in his name, he would be there.

Jesus also described the church as an offensive attack force.  Not in a violent way, of course.  But when he described the church prevailing over the gates of Hell, he meant that it/we were going to knock those walls down and take the city.

These days, the church in America feels a lot more like a castle with it's walls closed and it's drawbridge up, quaking in fear at the godless culture coming to take it's rights away.  Hopefully, if we dig that moat deeper, we'll be okay.

I haven't felt very connected to the church for at least a year now.  In particular, a willful misunderstanding on the part of someone who really doesn't know me at all at the body I normally attend, caused me to feel very disconnected to them...and it really hasn't gotten much better.

In fact, two Sundays ago, I showed up well before the service was about to begin.  For 10 to 15 minutes, no one even came over and talked to me.  Finally, an 11 year old from the youth group did, but that was it.  To be blunt, a friendly wave, nod of the head, or "Hi" as I walk in really doesn't count.  Not that I even got much of those.

I just left.

Last Sunday, I didn't even bother to show up.  My closest friend and his family weren't going to be there, so why bother?  I just wasn't feeling it.

So, is this just me throwing a pity party?  Maybe.  Probably.  Still, it's where I'm at currently.

Some back ground might be helpful: Back in the early to mid 90s, I was a youth director at a church in the Twin Cities metro area.  I lovingly refer to it as the "Church of Hell."  The pastor had been dismissed a few months before I got there for having a long term adulterous affair with a married woman in the church.  Apparently, he did everything in his power to tare the church down around him before he left.

They hired me to be a tap dancer in a mine field.

Myself and the the Junior High leader were the whipping boys for a congregation in pain.  I lasted about a year and a half.  I found out later that they had chewed up and spit out at least 6 pastors in 6 years after I left.

It was a painfully eye opening experience.  I thoroughly hated christianity and, in particular, Christians after that.  A rather understandable reaction, I feel.  To this day, I have a natural hesitation around people who call themselves christians.  So, what happened in the church body last winter, naturally caused me to fall back into massive amounts of self-doubt, wariness, skepticism, and so on as old wounds are reopened and scabs are torn off.

I earnestly long to trust my fellow believers.  I want to be open around them.  I make the mistake of doing just that...and then, once again, it's time for pain.  Rinse, wash, repeat...

The odd thing is that even when I hated christians, and ended up in a rebellious spiral, I couldn't escape Jesus.  Believe me, I wanted to.  I worked hard at it...really, REALLY hard.  I don't know what you want to call it.  Maybe I had too much "Head Knowledge" to escape the reality of Jesus being the God he claimed to be.  I simply couldn't deny it.  Maybe it was too much "Heart Knowledge."  I couldn't escape his pull on me. (Makes me wonder if Calvinists are on the something.) Like it or not, I couldn't escape him.

Eventually, I came back into the fold.  But the pain is still there.  I can assure you that I obviously have a very different outlook on life and the church than most do.  That's just the way it is.  It's who I am.  It's what it is...


God is weird.  I can't figure him out.  For the most part, I like it that he is this way.  I don't like a supreme being that can be reduced to a formula on a piece of paper.  Still, I don't "Get" him a majority of the time.

I've always been fairly contrarian.  I'm skeptical of any mass movement.  When it comes to the church in America, you can times that to the 25th power.  I see things differently.  I always have.  But as the result of something that happened to me about 6 years ago, it's much worse.

True story.  Read this at your own leisure and peril.

Yeah, that's right.  I actually heard God speak to me.  I'm not delusional, nor was I stoned.  I heard his voice.  And frankly, I don't care if you believe me or not.  I know what happened.  It was only one, single word, "See," and it changed my life in ways that I wish it hadn't a good deal of the time.

T.V. preachers claim to hear God's voice all the time.  Usually, God is telling them to get more money from their flocks, or that certain candidates are anointed, and so on.  To me, if you really hear God's voice, it will change your relationship with him and the way you view the world.  That's the difference.  That's what it does.  That's what it is.

Do I see the world the way God sees it now?  Unfortunately, a good deal of the time I do.  Not all the time.  It doesn't make me better than anyone, by any stretch.  In fact, a lot of the time I wish it had never happened.  Now I'm stuck getting a God's eye view of things I don't want to look at, including myself and my issues, much of the time.

On a side note; now I get why he doesn't do this very often.  God can communicate any way he desires.  I think he uses he voice minimally because it's just so bloody overwhelming.  It devastated me, that's for sure.  I can't imagine what it must have been like for guys like Isaiah, Jeremiah or Ezekiel back in the day.  They had to put up with hearing him all of the time.  No wonder they weren't very popular until after they were dead.

I recall going to an industrial rock show two Springs ago.  The grocery manager at our store is the lead guitar player for a band called Gabriel and the Apocalypse.  His wife is the singer and the drummer works in our produce department.

Even though the style of music is not really my cup of tea, I know talent when I see it.  Plus, it's funny to me to watch the reaction of a few hundred tattooed, leather clad, head banging, eye shadow wearing 20 somethings as I get to the front of the stage and gently nod my head.  "What's dad doing here?"

Anyhoooo, so I'm walking around the venue and I see this gal spinning her head around like a propellor to the music.  I thought that thing was going to come sailing off and bounce around the floor.  I had no idea you could spin that fast.

So I'm watching her, and here comes to vision.  The eyeballs start doing their thing, and I start crying.  I see her pain.  I see her emptiness.  I see her loneliness.  I see how lost she is.  I see her the way God sees her.  Thanks a lot!  Good thing the venue was dark.  Crying is probably inappropriate at such shows.

And that happens a lot.  It is what it is.


Euangelion = "Gospel"

What is the Gospel?  It means "Good News."  What is the good news?

Jesus said, "Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven."  That passage is so easily misunderstood.  Most of the time, people think it's something you are supposed to work towards becoming.  That really isn't it at all.

Being poor in spirit is a condition that you find yourself in.  It it is NOT a good place.  The poor in spirit are losers.  They are failures.  They are everything our world tells us not to be.  If you are in that condition, you need to remedy and fix it.

But when Jesus uses the term "Blessed," he is saying that God is on the side of who ever is being blessed.  Basically, Jesus is congratulating people for being losers.  That doesn't make any sense at all.  But I can't deny that he said it.

Another true story...

My former student had a heroin problem.  He's been clean for a little over a year now.  The doctors told him that if he did it again he would die because he's damaged his heart.  I hadn't seen him since the day I wrote the post above.

Two Saturdays ago, I ran into his mother at our store.  I hadn't seen her since then, either.  I asked her how her son was doing.  She said that he was getting out of jail on Monday.  His been in, paying off his debts to society for almost a year.  I asked her to have him get in touch with me immediately.

This young man comes from a troubled family.  They were deeply involved in a local health & wealth prosperity cult in town.  It's a mega church.  They teach that every pimple is the result of sin.  If you have enough faith, God will shit his blessings on you in the form of money. (Must be working, cause the pastor is loaded.) If you don't get rich, or get sick, it's your own bloody fault.  God needs your money, because it's a sign of faith.  God won't like you if you don't have faith.

Cancer?  You dirty sinner!  
Epilepsy?  Stop shaking and write that check!  
Your mortgage is underwater?  Well, you just ain't livin' right!

I once knew a gal who was deep into this.  Once she prayed for a parking spot near the front of a Target store.  God answered her prayer and provided her with one.  Forsooth & anon!  Before she could get to it, someone else parked in it!  She was most vexed that this individual had thwarted the will of the Most High!!!

My former student attended this churches' private school for a time before ending up in my classroom.  Having observed this school and church for many years, I consider the school to be a stronghold of demonic power...and I'm not joking.  So, by the time he came to my class, he had more than a few bags to unpack.

A lot of people like to hand out tracts.  Some like to carry signs and shout on street corners.  Many people like to be busy for God.  Work, work, work.  "Look how religious I am!"  Gotta get out there and be a witness.  Busy, busy, busy.  "Honestly, God just can't seem to get it done.  We need to step up and do his job for him."

I suck at that.  I really do.  But I don't mind just being a wrench or a screw driver in God's hand.  I figure he knows what he's doing better than I do.  I'm fairly clueless most of the time anyway.

Be still, and know that I am YHWH; 
I will be exalted among the nations in the earth.
Psalm 46:10

Translation = "Hold still, would ya?  You make a lousy wrench jumping around in my hand!  I'll get the job done with or with out you.  Just hold still and be!"

I don't mind holding still and just being.  Sometimes, sometimes, I get to see the faintest glimpse of what the kingdom actually looks like when I do.

I don't know what is going to happen to my former student down the road.  He has choices that he has to make.  He's basically got to rebuild his life from scratch.  It's going to be an uphill battle for quite a while.  Ultimately, it's between him and Jesus.

But maybe I get to see something while it's happening.  Maybe.

After I spoke with his mother, I spoke with my boss.  The day after he got out of jail, we were in contact.  A day later I had him meet my boss.  The next day he was interviewed.  He told me, "Joe, they won't hire me with my past.  I'm an ex-con in recovery."  I told him, "No, that's exactly why they will hire you."

I got to work with him the past 2 days as we slogged out turkeys for he big Thanksgiving rush.

What is the Gospel?  
That is what it is...
and every once in a while, I get to see it.



P.S. If you're curious as to my friend, the grocery manager's band, here they are.  Jake, the manager, is the one holding the plate full of worms in the video.  It's particularly amusing to me, because he is one of the most gentle and soft spoken people you will ever meet.  😄

Sunday, November 20, 2016

A Strange kind of Love...

For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when the perfect comes, the imperfect will disappear...Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror, then we shall see face to face.  Now, I know in part; then I shall know full, even as I am fully known.
1. Cor. 13:9 & 12

No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him.
1 Cor. 2:9

And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, "Now the dwelling of God is with men, and he will live with them.  They will be his people, and God himself will be with them and be their God.  He will wipe every tear from their eyes.  There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old oder of things has passed away."
Rev. 21:3

And I do believe there can’t be other intelligent beings in outer space because of the meaning of the gospel. You see, the Bible makes it clear that Adam’s sin affected the whole universe. This means that any aliens would also be affected by Adam’s sin, but because they are not Adam’s descendants, they can’t have salvation. One day, the whole universe will be judged by fire, and there will be a new heavens and earth. God’s Son stepped into history to be Jesus Christ, the “Godman,” to be our relative, and to be the perfect sacrifice for sin—the Savior of mankind.
Ken Ham  7/20/2014


I have an auto mechanic who is a part-time theologian and philosopher.  He tends to be a bit shy and soft spoken, but once he opens up it get's interesting.  The last time I was having some work done he told me about his theories of the God of the bible in relation to creation and existence.

"Think about it.  What is happening right now is all apart of God's plan, even though it often makes no sense to us at all.  God knew that this was the only way to get his job done.  If there had been a better way, He would have done it.  But, this, this was the best and most perfect way.  We simply have to have faith that He knows what He's doing.  In the end, it's gonna blow our minds."

I think he may be on to something.


Yesterday I went to see the new "Dr. Strange" movie.  It was really good.  While DC comics can't seem to ever get it right, Marvel never seems to get it wrong.  Nerd that I am, I also enjoying seeing a non-American try and pull off an American accent.  Well, when you have Benedict Cumberbatch as your actor, you know he's going to nail the role...which he did.

That actor amazes me in every role I've seen him in.  In fact, just for fun, take a gander at this...

That's funny!

So anyway, Dr. Strange.  Never bothered to pay much attention to him as a kid.  Spiderman was my guy.  I kick myself now for not hanging on to those originals!!!  Spidey rocked.  So I never paid much attention to the good Dr.  Plus, it had occult over tones.  Not something I've ever been a fan of.

Still, this is the Marvel universe.  It's not reality.  It's just fun.  Of course, with a movie, you get to do plenty of tweaking anyway.  In this case, it wasn't so much the occult as it was trans-dimensional stuff.  Different realities, different dimensions, different worlds and orders, etc.

I recall sitting in the theater and starting to ask myself, "What if they're on to something accidentally?  What if, by pure accident, they might be right about some of this?"

About 10 years ago, I heard String Theorists posit that they believed that there were at least 13 different dimensions, instead of the 3 or 4 that we are used to.  Funky! (And to be honest, I know Jack about String Theory.)

Western Christianity likes to think that our culture has a Judeo/Christian basis.  That's partially true.  However, at a deeper level we have a Grecco/Roman heritage.  The Greeks, thanks to Plato, thought that the physical world was largely bad.  You wanted to escape it into the spiritual world, where things were pure and unadulterated.  That's why, when Paul preached in Athens about a bodily resurrection, so many of the Greeks scoffed at him.  They didn't want to get a brand new, cleaned up body.  They wanted out of here.

Plenty of those Greek ideas crept into the church.  That's why we often see heaven as a a cloudy place, with us floating about playing harps.  Not my cup of tea, I can tell you that.

To the ancient Hebrews, the idea of heaven NOT being a physical reality, would have been ridiculous.  It would have been Greek to them. (Get it?  Funny!) Certainly, Scripture speaks very bluntly of a physical reality in heaven, and one here on earth when the old order is replaced with a new one.

Anyway, about Dr. Strange and alternate realities and what not; if you believe the bible, then you have to conclude that whatever scientists and philosophers come up with to explain how things work, God is intimately involved in it.  Since he created everything, when science explains something, all they are doing is showing one of the zillions of ways that God goes about his business.

In fact, I'll go farther.  Considering that every new scientific discovery demonstrates more and more how amazingly complex creation and how it works is, the idea that all of this is a complete accident and not the result of some great, cosmic mind behind it, becomes less and less viable and believable.  All of this amazing complexity through the universe is NOT an accident...

I'm never sure how or if science will ever be able to measure and explain the metaphysical/spiritual world, but talk about a totally different dimension.  I can barely begin to wrap my head around even an inch of that world.

In the mean time I often wonder about life on other planets.  I put the amusing quote by everyone's favorite Young Earth Creationist, Ken Ham up at the top for a couple of reasons.  #1. To show how clunky his writing is when compared to the artistic words of Paul and John.  #2. To demonstrate his poor understanding of the bible.  #3. To show what a lack of faith he really has.

Ken's god is way to small for me.  His teeny little god is trapped in a cardboard box that prevents it from being supreme and omnipotent.  His little fella is very limited.  I don't like tiny gods.

The God that Scripture reveals is BIG.  Too big for us to wrap our finite noggins around.  I like that God.  He's interesting and full of surprises.

Years ago, I read "Out of the Silent Planet" and "Perelandra" by C.S. Lewis.  In short, both books deal with an Englishman going to Mars, and then to Venus back in the days of WW2.  It really changed the way I thought about the potential for alien life.  In the case of these stories, the aliens lived in a state of sinlessness.  They didn't understand the concept of right and wrong, and were therefor never tempted.

I should note that in these stories, the planets all have guardian angles.  Earth is referred to by them as the silent planet because our angel is Satan and therefor does not speak to the other angels. (Food for thought, huh?)

So, what if there is life on other planets?  Do they live in a state of sinlessness?  Are they still so primitive that they can't even think super un-evolved?  Did they have their own fall at one point, and if so, what did God do about it?

I don't recall the song, but back in the 70s, the hippie christian singer, Larry Norman, had a song that said that if there is intelligent life on other planets, and they have sinned, Jesus went over there are died for them, too.  I like that idea.  It wouldn't surprise me the least.

I dunno, I was just sitting there watching the movie and thinking how small I am, and how massively huge Jesus is.  He created everything that is, in his own way and time, according to a plan that I can't fully grasp and only he fully understands.  He did it out of love; love at simply being able to create, and love for the beings he knew would explore his works.  I'm not even a pimple on the world's butt in comparison to him.  But he says that he loves me.  He says he loves me a lot,

And someday, I'll have all of eternity for him to show me around all of the stuff he made for us...



Friday, November 11, 2016


“I don't want to see religious bigotry in any form. It would disturb me if there was a wedding between the religious fundamentalists and the political right. The hard right has no interest in religion except to manipulate it.”

Billy Graham, 1981

"What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul?"
Matt. 16:26

"If you listen to fools, the mob rules"
Ronnie James Dio

The bible fascinates me.  If you read it in context and for all it's worth, it will blow your mind.  These ancient authors, under the influence of the Holy Spirit, writing thousands of years ago still speak truth to the human condition.  "There is nothing new under the sun," says one in Proverbs.  And he's correct.  As far as the human condition is concerned, there really is nothing new.

So here's something you might know from the pages of the bible.

Samson.  You know the story.  Big, strong guy with long hair that couldn't keep his hands to himself.
Hero, right?  Not exactly.

The Book of Judges is perhaps the most disturbing book in the Old Testament.  Rape, murder, assassinations, Levites slicing and dicing  their concubines up and mailing chunks around Israel.  Pretty freaky deaky.  No wonder you don't get many sermons from that book.

The Book of Judges is not a book of heroes.  We think that it is because the way the author of Hebrews in the New Testament uses some of the characters in it.  And that's legit.  Hebrews is a pick-me-up sermon in the form of a letter.  However, the Book of Judges is not.

Compiled during the time of the exile in Babylon, the Book of Judges is an indictment.  It is helping to answer the question, "How did we end up in exile?"  The author's answer is, "Because we kept screwing up, that's why!"

Interesting side note:  There is only ONE good judge in the entire Book of Judges.  It happens to be the only woman judge...the Prophetess Deborah.  The rest are bums who go from bad to worse.  I doubt it's an accident that the author purposely shoved a woman in the face of a highly patriarchal and faithless Israel. (I told you the bible would blow your mind.)

In it's context, Samson is a mirror of Israel.  To the Jewish exiles in Babylon, the story of Samson was their own story.  A story of faithlessness in the face of a faithful God.  Samson was given every chance in the world, and he just couldn't stay faithful to God.  In the end, God does a form of mercy killing and allows Samson to commit suicide and take his enemies with him.

Samson is a terrible roll model, and not someone to be looked up to.
He is no hero what so ever.
Instead, he is a warning to Israel
...and all followers of the God of the Bible.

"Whatever you do, do NOT be like Samson."

So why do I bring up Samson?

You know this election we just had?  I have heard multiple pastors and "Christian" spokespeople, including the author, Eric Metaxas, whom I respect a lot, call Donald Trump "Our" modern day Samson, coming to aid America and the church in our hour of need.  I think to myself, "That's not exactly the kind of help I'm looking for, thank you very much."

(Still, the idea of seeing a blinded Donald Trump pushing the pillars of the capital rotunda down on his head would get plenty of views on YouTube.)


Apparently I'm really good at irritating people.  Everyone has their own unique skill set.  I guess that's mine.  Whatever.

This post will hopefully irritate people from all walks of life, right left and center.  So, let's roll...

When I woke up Wednesday morning, this was my reaction to the election.  I was absolutely stunned.  I didn't vote for either Trump or Clinton.  But I never thought in a million years that someone as uniquely and utterly unqualified to be President would actually get elected.

Americans never seem to understand how the rest of the world perceives us.  I suppose it's because we don't have to care, since we're on this giant island with the world's most powerful military.  Still, by and large, the rest of the world believes we just elected a Clown-in-Chief.  I'm very embarrassed to be an American at the moment.

Still, as curious as I am to see how long Trump can hold himself before he pops off and let's his true self come out, I'm not as terrified as I was two days ago.  Actually, it's more a source of amusement now.  I'm guessing that the White House staff will be dumping copious amounts of quaaludes into his food supply, or something along those lines, to keep that blithering fool under wraps.

The real source of amusement is going to come from the ardent Trump supporters, and the let down that is headed their way.  In no short order, you will see The Donald realize just how little he can get done just through force of his will.  He is most likely going to not follow through on the vast majority of his campaign promises.  Mostly, because they were simply pure fantasies to begin with.

In particular, I have no idea how he's going to bring back all of those manufacturing jobs.  Unless everyone wants to pay $50 for a pair of socks, no, those types of jobs are never coming back.  So, good luck with that.

If he or any other politician would talk about helping those folks transition into new jobs, in the new economy, with our new technology, that would be a fresh start...and one based in reality.  But what does Trump care?  He just wants to win.


I guess what breaks my heart the most about this election is how the church prostituted itself once again.  That never comes as a surprise to me anymore.  But it still breaks my heart.

Back in the day, Billy Graham used to have Richard Nixon speak at some of his crusades.  When Watergate happened, and Billy heard some of the Nixon tapes with Nixon rambling on with drunken profanities, he was stunned and shocked.  He realized that Nixon had used him for his own, selfish political purposes.

To his credit, Nixon refused to see Billy after that.  Billy reached out to him during that time, but Nixon refused.  He didn't want to taint Billy anymore than he already had.  He felt remorse.

Billy learned his lesson.  He stayed completely out of politics after that.  Hence the quote at the top of this post.  Billy fully understood the damage that politics can have on the church and the message of the Gospel.

Unfortunately, Billy's kids have yet to learn that lesson.  Franklin isn't the only dimwit in the family.  Billy's daughter, Ruth Graham Lotz said on the news this morning that Trump's election was a blessing from God.

It's true that God has a hand in everything that happens. (I say that, and I'm not even a Calvinist.) However, I would highly doubt this to be a blessing.  Maybe God is giving us the divine middle finger.


From what I hear, 80% of "Evangelicals" voted for Trump.  These people who claim to love and follow Jesus, voted for a man whose entire existence has been one diametrically opposed to everything Jesus taught and stood for.  That's fascinating to me.  I guess it just goes to show what fear can do.

Why did these godly, faithful, god-fearing, bible-believing folks vote for a man who is a black hole, vortex of character?  Why did these lovers of Jesus vote for a man whose life is a mirror of everything that a Christian must never do or be?  Why did these faithful followers of the God of the bible vote for a man who many of these folks consider to be America's Samson? (And we know how that worked out now, don't we?)

From what I've heard, the court system was the #1 reason.

We gotta keep the Supreme Court "Conservative."  If we don't, Christianity will soon be illegal.  Then, they'll take away our guns so we can't overthrow the government when we need to.  Then, they'll make abortion mandatory for all unless your baby is gay.  THEN, when your gay baby grows up, you'll have to bake a cake for it's wedding.

The Supreme Court, particularly under John Roberts, has had a conservative majority since the 80s.  Guess what having a "Conservative" court got us?  Citizens United, voter suppression, gay marriage and yes, Yes, YES, best of all...OBAMACARE!!!!!

If you place your faith and protection in the vain hope of a friendly court, you are worshipping the wrong god.

Here's what gets me about the extremely narrow issues that so-called Christians fixate on.  They are not truly issues.  They are litmus tests to prove how religious you are as compared to someone else.  They are nothing more than windmills to be tilted at, so as to show that you are a good, "Religious" person.

But they have little to do with either reality or Christianity.

Let's have some fun...and here is where I get to be an equal opportunity irritator.

#1. Abortion: I'm going to tell you a truth that you won't like.  It's a not so well kept secret that politicians on the Right and Left know, but won't speak openly about.  Here it is; Abortion...will NEVER, EVER be illegal in the U.S!!!!  It might be limited in one form or the other, but it's never going away, folks.

You don't have to like that fact, but it's still a fact.  Politicians on the Right and Left know this in their hearts.  But they bring it out ever few years, shake it in the face of people, and get them all worked up.  It's a NON-issue that goes nowhere, but it plays really well to the base...and ya gotta get them votes.

For the record, I HATE abortion!

But I understand reality.  The term is called "Stare Decisis."  It's been the law of the land since 1973.  It isn't going away.  If you want to fight abortion, there are better and more effective ways to go about it than voting for something that will never happen.

The link above is to the World Health Organization's study on abortion world wide.  One interesting fact was that the more restrictive a society is with abortion, the more there are.  The more advanced a society is, the less there are.

It would seem to me that if Christians are so "Pro-Life," then they ought to screaming at politicians to fight world poverty.  But then again, I'm a terrible Christian, so what do I know?

#2. Gay Marriage.  Allow me to irritate my lefty friends first.  Unless you play fast and loose with Scripture, you cannot conclude that anything other than sexual purity until heterosexual marriage for LIFE (Minimal wiggle room for divorce) is the order of the day.  Let me go farther.  Defining yourself by who you get aroused by is a form of idolatry.  I don't know how you could come to any other conclusion after reading Romans 1:18-32.

In fact, let me push a few more buttons in an unusual way.  I don't view being "Gay" as a sin. (I don't like to define anyone that way to begin with, since human sexuality is much more complicated that we want to admit.) No, being Gay, Bisexual or Straight it NOT a's a TEMPTATION!

I used to have substance abuse issues.   That's a temptation for me.  You want me to define myself by that?  I won't!  It's a's not the center of who I am  And every time it comes looking for me, I have to turn it over to Jesus.  So that's the question.  Are you going to turn your sexuality over to Jesus?  Yes or no?

And now I get to irritate my righty friends.  

I don't care if a guy wants to marry another guy.  Do they pay taxes?  Then let them have their rights.  I'm never going to defend it biblically, but then I understand that not everyone sees eye to eye on this issue with me.  I'm not going to compel anyone into my belief system. (Although I certainly don't object to a friendly debate.) I just don't see any upside to people living in the shadows.

In the mean time, this whole issue has very little to do with me.  I never planed on marrying another man.  So...

Would I go to a gay wedding?  I dunno.  Haven't been invited yet. (Bet the food would be pretty good and the outfits simply smashing!)

Been to a Atheist wedding once.  That was a weird one.  Still, neither of them knew Jesus, (DUH) and being friends with them was important to me.  It's hard to live out the Gospel if you're not in a relationship with folks.  And that's what matters to me.

#3. Religious Liberty. I've spoken to plenty of folks from countries where Christianity is illegal.  They have a better understanding of freedom than we do, I can promise you that.  Just because a Christian can't force his will on another person does not mean that we are losing our freedom.  Again, if you place your faith and security in the courts or politicians, you are worshipping the wrong god.

So why do I bring all of that up?  Because they are essentially non-issues for me.  I don't base my vote on them because they ultimately go nowhere.  I prefer to base my vote on what anyone says they will do for the weak and know, "The Least of These."  Unfortunately, I rarely hear anything from any party about that.

But because Trump made vague promises to gullible "Christians," they drank the kool aid and now he will be in office.  The bright side is that the very folks who use to scream that "Character Matters" have now forfeited to right to ever use that phrase for the rest of their lives.


I've struggled for a long time with my label, "Christian," or "Evangelical."  Over the years, these labels have compiled more and more negative connotations.

When I tell people I'm a Christian, they think of quack-tastic science, Adam and Eve riding vegetarian dinosaurs and their kids banging each other.  When I say I'm an Evangelical, people think of politics moving further and further to the far Right.  Again and again and again, I have to use the phrase, "We're not all like that."  But I could be wrong...maybe we are.

So, what to do?

I've been trying to find a term that throws people off.  That way, they have to ask me what I'm for, not for what I'm against.

I think I may have found it.  I heard a news story on NPR last week about Christian women who were revolted by Trump.  They used the term "Xvangelical" to describe themselves.  I like that.  I like that a lot.

I'm sick to death of politics.  I'm sick to death of Christians letting themselves be used and conned so easily.  I'm sick to death of the fear in the American church.  I'm sick to death of Christians being sluts to their narrow desires for political positions.  I'm sick to death of power hungry pastors.  I'm sick to death of quack theologians and their fear of scientific facts. ("How DARE God create things in a manner that I don't approve of?!?!?!") I'm sick to death of the health and wealth Prosperity cult.  I'm just sick to death.

Please understand, someday, someday, Jesus' kingdom will bet here in full and America and all other nations will disappear completely.

All I want to do is follow Jesus into his kingdom...
and other than Him, it feels very lonely.

I'm an Xvangelical.



Ladies and gentlemen, America's new national anthem.

Sunday, October 9, 2016

Disillusionment, Rage, and how the "Church" let me down...once again.

CAUTION: This post will have some rather blunt and crude language in it.

The Spirit clearly says that in later times some will abandon the faith and follow deceiving spirits and things taught by demons.
1 Tim. 4:1

For a time will come when men will not put up with sound doctrine.  Instead, to suit their own desires, they will gather around them a great number of teachers to say what their itching ears want to hear.  They will turn their ears away from the truth and turn aside to myths.
2 Tim. 4: 3 & 4

"I'm automatically attracted to beautiful - I just start kissing them.  It's like a magnet.  Just kiss.  I don't even wait.  And when you're a star, they let you do it.  You can do anything.  Grab them by the pussy."
Donald Trump

Yesterday I was up early.  I drove up to Duluth to see an old friend that I hadn't seen in a number of years.  I'm on vacation...the first since 2008, so why not take a little road trip and have some fun?

And then the news of Donald Trump and his rape tape came on the radio.

To be honest, I wasn't shocked by any of it.  To be more honest, my only shock would be that anyone couldn't have seen that one coming.  I was wrong about that.  I was shocked.  But not by any revelation or the fact that some people could be so clueless as to not see predatory behavior in the character of a man like Trump.  No.  My shock came from the reaction of so many people of faith, and their "So-Called" leaders.

Before I go on, let me be very, very crystal clear about something.  Now, what I am about to say should frankly be obvious to anyone with an ounce of common sense.  When a man forces himself on a woman, it's called rape.  When a very wealthy and powerful man grabs a woman by the pussy, gropes her, kisses her without being asked or permitted, it is still a form of rape. (At best, you could call it attempted rape.) Just think Bill Cosby.

But you can get away with it when you are rich and powerful.

But it IS still rape.

Donald Trump is a predatory, adulterous, wealthy and powerful rapist!!!

You cannot deny that anymore than you can deny the nose on your face.


Full Disclosure: I am not a Clinton fan.  Never really have been.  I'll either be voting Green or Libertarian in the Presidential election.  So I don't want anyone thinking for one second that this is a "Pro-Hillary" post.  It is not.

This morning, this image has been popping up on internet all over the place.  Clearly, it is a defense of Trump.  So let's parse this sentence, shall we?

"...than by what Trump has said."

And what exactly has Trump said?  He said that he cheats on his wife...while she was pregnant, no less, on a regular basis.  He says that he doesn't wait for permission.  He just starts kissing, groping and grabbing women by the pussy.

THAT is what he says he did, do and does!  This sentence is not about the past tense.  Donald Trump freely admits that this form of behavior is ongoing.  You cannot deny it.

But apparently you can...

The story that came on the radio after the news of Trump and his grabby hands was of this man, Ralph Reed.  Feel free to listen or read it for yourself.

If you read it, do you feel like you need to take a bath now?  It was pure, sycophantic drivel.  He says that Trump "apologized profusely."  Really???  He gave a brief remark and then tried to turn it on Bill Clinton.

Also, someone needs to explain to me how opposing the nuclear deal with Iran has anything to do with my Christian faith one way or the other.

This man, and the rest of what's left of the Religious Right have had their tongues down the back of Trump's trousers the entire campaign.  Jame's Dobson, Jerry Fallwell Jr. and guys like Ralph Reed have exposed themselves for what they really are...power hungry fakes.

I've always been skeptical of the Religious Right.  I sympathize with their goals.  I believe in traditional marriage...with little wiggle room for divorce, and I don't like abortion at all.  Shoot, I'm so biblically Old School that I actually believe in sexual purity before marriage.  But the methodology of these people scares me.  I've doubted for years if they truly trusted that Jesus knows what he's doing.  It would appear that they think they can do a better job.  And power is they way to do it.

They have lost any and all credibility.  
And that is probably for the best.


Last night, a friend put up a rant about Trump and stated that he wanted Mike Pence to take over.  A friend of his posted that "What Trump has Said" image.  I responded as I did earlier in this post that Trump is essentially a rapist, and asked when the church would wake up to that.  This was a response that I got...with my reply to it underneath.

Anonymous:  "The church is responsible for reaching the world with the Gospel....Not the president. I'm just as sad as any Christian that our candidate is someone who's had a foul mouth. But he is our Republican candidate and just like the election years with McCain and Romney, I will march myself to my voting station and I will vote for the Republican candidate. My question to you is which president in the last 20 years do you think your 'Christian friends' should have voted for with a clean conscience? Or I'll ask this way...which candidate on the ballot (either party) in the last 20 years was a Christian conservative according to your standards ?
I hope you realize what you really are saying about me and other Christians who ARE voting for Trump. It's actually quite hurtful and judgmental"

Me: This will be my one and only response to what I/you said: 1) You equate "The Church" with being Republican and being Conservative..."Our candidate." Interesting. Not sure where in the Gospels Jesus chooses to side with any given political party or ideology anywhere or in any country at any time. 2) I don't expect perfection out of any politician, so that's not my issue. But Republicans used to say that character mattered. Now they have chosen one that is a black hole, devoid of any character at all. Proving that what they really want is simply power for the sake of power...and that would include the Religious Right.

3) As far as being hurtful and what not, that's probably your conscience talking to you, because, and let me be very, very crystal clear about this...a man that readily admits that he likes to force himself on women is what society calls a rapist...or at best an attempted rapist. Donald Trump is in the same boat as Bill Cosby. He is a rapist! You might agree with whatever policy he has propped up at the moment to get your vote, but he is still a rapist. You need to understand that. You need to take a good long look in the mirror before you cast your ballot and tell yourself that "I agree with the issues of this man, so I will vote for him even though he tries to rape women."

If that truth is hurtful, it is ultimately & truly not MY problem...

I stand by everything I wrote!

I really am curious.  When did the Republican Party...or any other, for that matter, become Jesus' party?  When did "Conservative" become the "Ism" of Jesus?  When did Capitalism, Marxism, Liberalism, Fascism or any other "Ism" become Jesus' favorite?

I really want to know????


The irony of this entire post is that initially, it was not going to have anything to do with Trump.  I was driving up to see my old friend because I needed a pep talk about Christianity.

Don't get me wrong.  I have no doubts about Jesus what so ever.  There is nothing you can throw at me at this point that will cause me to doubt that he is exactly who and what he claimed to be; the resurrected King, creator God of the universe, and the only hope of salvation for fallen humanity.

But I have been having severe issues with christians and the church in America.

Friday morning, I was having breakfast with guys from my church.  As of late, I get more out of that than I do attending Sunday worship.  A guy we hadn't seen for a while showed up.  He's nice enough guy, but then he started casually joking about his recent divorce.  Huh?!?!

At work, one of the few other christians there readily admitted to me that he is now having sex with his non-christian girlfriend.  When I pointed out to him that "Fornication" (Pre-marital sex) is a sin, he just shrugged his shoulders.

At the church I attend, there are a few people who apparently hate me for a variety of reasons...even though they have never bothered to even say "Hi" to me in all the years I have attended.  Furthermore, a large chunk of the elders are fairly die hard Fundamentalists who think the universe is only 6000 years old, and modern science is therefor evil.  It is greatly frowned upon if I begin to ask questions. (Christians hate questions.  It's much better to be completely unprepared for the real world.)

So I've just been feeling rather let down by my fellow christians as of late.  Don't get me wrong.  I don't expect perfection out of anyone.  I'm a horrible sinner.  It's true.  But I at least expect a bit of effort on people's part.

So I headed up to Duluth for a pep talk...which I did get.  Unfortunately, I also got an earful of Trump and his "Evangelical" sycophantic minions on the radio.

So much of the church in America just makes me want to vomit!

Peace...I guess.


Perfect song for the dirty whore that so much of the so-called "Bride of Christ" actually is...